Hello everyone, 

   It's been an exceptionally long time since I have posted anything, but as you all know I have been going through a lot. Now I am taking my life back, I am not letting the depression or the loss of a kidney keep me down. I have to much to live for, and there was the promise I made to my hubby that I would go on with my life and not sit here and die. It has been very hard for me at first but thanks to some very special friends I have been able to snap out of it and for the first time in a long time I am actually enjoying life again.

  I go out dancing to a latin club every other week and I have made some new friends and I do a lot of walking with Cujo, my dog. Lost a lot of weight which was needed, cuz I did gain a lot from the depression, and I actually feel really great about myself. The only downside is that I have to go into the hospital every couple of months so they can keep an eye on the kidney I have left, but so far everything is turning out just fine, the blood pressure has went down dramatically since I started going out, which is a good thing, hopefully that means the kidney is functioning just great.

  Got a birthday coming up on the 28th, so it will be a grand night on the 27th at the club, there will be new friends as well as old friends there so we will have a ball. Life is to short for me to give up, so I am going to enjoy each day as it comes.

  See ya!!!!!

Well, I am back, it has been the hardest 3 months of my life, and I still dont see a light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe just coming here and writing will help, who knows?

    As I said before, I lost the love of my life July 21, 2005, 20 wonderful years spent together, but it was his time to go. Lost my vehicle in Aug. poor thing went to the graveyard junkard, transmission went, power steering pump, and brakes,  it was old anyway. But boy is it hard to get around without a vehicle, cant afford another one just yet.

   Was in the hospital in Sept and lost the use of my left kidney, it is completely non functional, so now they have to keep an eye on the right one, they put stents in the right renal artery, so as long as I do what I am supposed to do, it should be okay.Am I ever going to start having good days, or is it going to be downhill from now on. My husbands funeral really put me in a bind, since he did not have insurance, it was so difficult for me. Finances really are bad, just cant seem to make ends meet anymore.

I do get very discouraged and depressed, but I am trying to keep my chin up here. I thank God for letting me get out of bed every morning.

 Just dont know what else could possibly go wrong in my life.  Ah well, we just have to wait and see, at least I still have my dog Cujo, although he does seem to be moping around a bit more then usual to, he was daddy's boy.  Well take care. 

It' s been an especially long time since I have been in here, and I have been having a really tough time time. I lost my hubby on July 21,due to an illness that hit him like a ton of bricks, he started felling sick in May and by July he was gone. I am so depressed I dont know what to do anymore, I am so lost without him, we have been married for 20 years.

Wow what a day, signed up 2 girls for Avon last night and 1 today, I have 2 more to sign up tomorrow. I am really on a roll here. I will still keep recruiting and selling, but I am so proud of myself, even my hubby is proud of me, he is the one who said go for it, so that is what I am doing.

Someone gave me a beagle puppy, but it was so hard to keep him especially with cujo, he would eat him in a second, but I found an excellent home for Sebastian, thats what I named him, he looks like a professional type, and the people I gave him to like the name so they are going to keep it.

Chow all

Hello, as usual it has been awhile, but hey what can I say I am a busy person.

The weather has been so beautiful out lately, started working on my garden and would'nt you know it, they want temps to drop near the freezing mark tonight, at least it is only seeds for now, dont think they will freeze.

Cujo is his regular goofy self, always wants to go out in the van, he will pout all day if he does get a ride at least once. I take him along to deliver my Avon orders and he is just so happy. I have been so busy trying to get recruits to sign up to sell Avon, it is a lot of fun though. My hubby has a lot of fun with me to.